Judge Seigfried

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I am currently sitting in a Court Room, not to decide my fate though thankfully but possibly others ?

headphones in, viewing, observing as usual. trying to read these people, they’re all here for the same thing as me.“ Id do anything for you “ keeps chanting in my ear. Im trying to focus right now, I don’t really know why they want me here . I’m very confused. In what I want , what the world expects , what the world deserves from me. My stomach hurts , I need to start eating in the mornings again but I don’t feel well after usually . Often I think what it’s like outside this life . But idk if I’m brave enough to find that out , not really in that way . More of curiosity .  I didnt get to go to the gym today , I think that is one thing in life that can stay consistent. It needs to be . Am I saying that for the betterment of myself or to impress others . The reality is most of the time I’m not sure what the answer is , that’s not good.  I remember one time I had watched this video on YouTube , it was a depiction of what that person thought Lonny was trying to relate through his latest album . I don’t know if I agreed much with it , or if it was too much to agree with . I get lost in my mind a lot , in the constant thoughts that don’t stop . I get stuck in what? Is that Siegfried? Constant. Constant . Constant . Nike is playing now , switching from day to night but I’m still sitting stationary in this chair . How can I make these type of decisions. I know I’m made for greatness but is it just inside me to doubt ?  I know I can lead myself to a futura free of stress, the decisions I make, the lessons I learn . It’s all within me as it is within anyone in this room , there’s a lady that has walked past me a few times . I wonder if she knows she smells nice, I wonder if she knows I care for her without even knowing her . I don’t know if these words really even make sense for the viewer that is laying their eyes on them but who cares honestly , isn’t that the point? if proper judgment without bias is what is being asked of me here today I don’t think I can do that.